No Lies, Just Love
What you see is what you get.
Hakuna Matata.
I don't worry that I can please everyone, because I am happy with the people I please.
Hakuna Matata.
I don't worry that I can please everyone, because I am happy with the people I please.
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"Stop trying to “get it together.” The biggest lie we’re told when we’re growing up is that soon as we’re adults, as soon as we’re in college, finish college, get that job, have that steady income, find that someone special, “find ourselves,” find that perfect house, get that retirement fund, have those children, everything will fall into place. Here’s a secret: it won’t. Every new development in your life, good or bad, big or small, will come with its own very special set of challenges. The sooner you accept that, the better off you’ll be. But the myth is perpetuated throughout life, perhaps now more than ever with happy status updates on Facebook and blushing bride/happy multi-tasking mommy blog posts. What these success stories don’t tell you is what is going on behind closed doors. They don’t tell you that your friend who is so over the moon with her new baby had to apply for food stamps. They don’t tell you that your fantastic, involved professor struggles with depression. They don’t tell you that your happily married friend still has nightmares about her abusive ex. They don’t tell you the cousin who just got that jealousy-inducing job opportunity is thinking of breaking up with his boyfriend of 10 years. What closely interacting with people from all backgrounds on the Internet for over a decade has taught me is that no one “has it together” in the way we think they do. So stop trying to have that as your goal, because you are just setting yourself up for massive failure."
— Nanna Freeman (x)
(via sparkamovement)
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I’ve had on sad girl face all day
And now I’m sitting in my bed finishing this bottle of wine because why the hell not. I broke up with my boyfriend and my heart hurts because good things don’t happen to me often and he was a very good thing. I’m irresponsible, neglectful, an all around bitch and he doesn’t deserve that. I’m a mess I always will be. I guess I’m just depressed because im 18 and I really need to get my shit together before I’m in a serious relationship. I’m not saying I need to be this perfect person with 100% of my shit together but it’d be awesome to be like at least partially sane. I guess I’d like to have at least 50% of my shit together, and I feel like thats something I really need to do alone. The only issue is i hate being alone and i tend to do stupid shit when im lonely which includes fucking over the people I care most about. I’m to old to have my mom and dad handing me the pieces of my life so i can slide them effortlessly into their place in this puzzle. Its time to get it together, its time for me to Figure out who I am now, figure out what I’m doing and what I want. And when I figure all of that out then I’m hoping that figuring out how to be in a healthy relationship will just follow. Maybe he’ll be waiting but I’m not counting on that. The worst part is cuddling this body pillow so hard that I feel the need to buy it dinner. The worst is ranting on tumblr because who else can I talk to. The worst part is not having anyone who just understands me. Right now I could say sorry, and fix it and get him back and just hide how much of a crazy person I am but the god to honest truth is I don’t know what to do with him when I have him, and lord knows he tries but he has no clue what to do with me. And while I hate having no one to cuddle with and even more than that no one who really understands me. The worst part is going to be seeing him with someone else in a few weeks and coping with the fact that someone else will be eating up all of my best friends free time because now we’re just fragments
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Prom Update
I was upset all morning, Then i got my hair done and felt pretty, then i got my makeup done and felt kind of like a celebrity. Then I put on my dress and was like, fuck dude I’m gorgeous, then I saw everyone else and was like… ha.. oh yeah. I’m not.
Oh yeah and my asshole date showed up late and stoned and I missed pictures so when he offered me the blunt on the way there I took a few hits and threw it out the window. Just because you’re an asshole doesn’t give you the right to screw me over. dickweed.
i should also probably mention that after prom I proceeded to get heavily intoxicated while surrounded with good people who don’t make me feel like shit all the time and let me be, and i also got to eat pudding and pet a chinchilla and everything was all butterflies and rainbows until the hangover the next monday.
